So I have had a messed up few months to be honest, I have learnt a lot but in the same time God has completely messed with my head and a lot of my views and perceptions of things have changed. My outlook on things is quite different now which is good in some ways but also very annoying! but in this I have learned quite a lot, I noticed pride in a lot of areas of my life where I was also thinking that I knew better than others and I didn't like the fact I allowed this in to my life, I was striving so much for God that I strayed off thinking I knew better! but how stupid I really was.
God really challenged me in this area which helped me to be open about it and allow God to bring me back on the right track, I now have the correct focus again loving god and loving others and I will not allow that to change, God has been so good to me so I want to do all I can to be good to others.
I was recently in Germany on a mission trip and it was such an amazing week there, I struggle a lot with the language barrier but God still really used that and I got to meet some amazing people, I was challenged big time out there when we were doing street work I was so eager to talk to people about Jesus but the language barrier was just too much to do so, but God really spoke to me about the fact I had so much eagerness to tell people about Jesus on the streets there but back in the UK I don't have that eagerness. I really want to be fully confident in this area where I can reach people with the word of God no matter where I am because this is a big struggle at times.
Through learning all this it has just helped me grow so much and I want to just strive for righteousness in all areas of my life and honour God in that and die to flesh so that I am walking by the spirit of God alone, I want my heart to be fully shaped and strive in Gods likeness and I know this is a big task and some would say impossible but I know it isn't as long as my heart and intentions are right, sorry for my massive rant but I have not done a blog in a while and I thought I would share all I have been learning.
God bless
